TDP: Never Gonna Give You Up–“Vices”

Vices. Bad habits. Imperfections. Fault. Weaknesses.

You. We know *you* are vice-free, dear Daily Post reader. But, or perhaps we should say, “butt,” others around you and in your life are riddled with vices: they smoke; they eat too much celery; they hog the covers; they can’t keep their hands out of the office candy bowl. Which vice or bad habit can you simply not abide in others?

An interesting prompt today from The Daily Post, and if you guys would indulge me, I’m sure I could rattle off a few things that are just the biggest pet peeves of mine. In others, I JUST simply canNOT abide by:

– smoking, especially when I’m subjected to one’s second-hand smoke (I’m the one coughing out loud to make that obnoxious and inconsiderate smoker feel uncomfortable!!!)

– whining without action (I canNOT stand complainers who do nothing to actually change their situation)

– quitting without trying (I find it so disappointing to see potential go to waste! Yikes, I sound like my mother!)

– Medicaid patients with an iPhone or driving an Escalade (I’ll stop right there because this is supposed to be a fun blog–not a political one!)

– being taken advantage of (Oh, hell no! **insert back and forth finger snapping/pointing and head shaking**)

– watching someone take advantage of someone else (Uh-uh! I will call you out!)

And on and on and on, I could go. But you know what, TDP, I ain’t gonna lie.

I have been driving my poor husband nuts this past week (and the past year and a half) because I am yet again on the “low” of my high-low, emotional roller coaster ride with my job, and man!!! Man, oh man! I can NOT stand what I’m putting my husband and myself through right now!

In a nutshell, I’m a Type-A, super ambitious, driven, and motivated person. I’ve never (at least I’m pretty sure I’ve never) given up on anything I have ever started–I may procrastinate (as you can see from me falling behind with my weekly posts) but I’ll still eventually get things done and meet my end goals! With that said, if I am on a positive run at work–I go hard, give it my ALL, 110%, every inch of my being I devote to caring for my patients, inspiring my team, and aim to drive business results. This is a fantastic 2 to 2.5 weeks a month of purposeful and empowered days at work. My husband actually gets to spend time that I have off from work with a pleasant wife!

But once a month, I get a scorecard, if you will—my business metrics accompanied by a supervisor visit. I know they are just doing their jobs too and they are having difficult conversations with my colleagues and me due to the pressures of the corporate mindset, but man oh, man! When I’m in one of these ruts…one of these lows, I’m so ridiculously on a rampage about all the corporate-bull$&*+ and I’m gone.

Then my husband has to feed me comfort Chinese food, ensure a fully stocked fridge and pantry for any craving-bingeing I may have and get into, and worse: he has to just take my whining, complaining, and arguing like a champ.

I. Am. Intolerable.

The sad thing is I know this. I know this vicious cycle. I know what it takes to break it so I can get back to the other side and be myself again and love my job again. I know I need to just get over it.. It’s a job.

JOB. It doesn’t make me who I am. It doesn’t define me. It just is my job that I need to do day in and day out…then move on.

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So easy right? Bah!

Goofin’ off….seriously, I’m going to goof off now and give my husband a big hug and kiss after hitting ‘publish.’ Thanks TDP for this prompt and letting me vent and for getting me out of the rut this time.. My husband thanks you!

Here’s to hoping I skip this cycle at least next month…that or I’ll just have to remind myself to read this entry again! Lol!

Goofin’ off, KW

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